Archive | September, 2013

Hopes and Fears for my Birthday

19 Sep

Finally, one week from today, September 26th, I will land in Maputo, Mozambique.   Talk about the best Birthday present ever.  Talk about a true rebirth.  Yeah, September 26th happens to be my birthday!  When I first began blogging I was building up to this moment. Living Life With A Little Spice encompasses so many things, at first it was with the food of my culture, now it is with this new experience.  It’s about adding something to your life to leave a lasting memory.   The preparation for my departure has been memorable itself. The last few weeks have been spent trying to pack, practicing Portuguese, and trying to enjoy the people I love as much as possible.

As excited as I am for this journey, of course there are my things weighing on my mind.  I joined Peace Corps to really find myself, to help me define more clearly who I am meant to be. It’s so important to me to be a part of our world community, not just by existing but by truly impacting someone, somewhere.

Now I have a week left and I am freaking out! It starting with my packing, what do I bring, what do I leave behind.  What If I need this, or that? Am I bringing too much? Isn’t that the whole issue, in myself, what do I bring, what do I leave behind?  My hopes and fears are flooding my brain.  So as I tap my fingers and anxiously await the day of my birth. Here are my hopes and fears for the next two years.

Hopes:

Meeting wonderful people

Meeting people I can learn from

Gaining network of people with a like mindset

Immersing myself in a new culture

Learning a new language, not just words and phrases but becoming fluent

Feeling passionate about a specific project and being successful

Leaving a lasting impact and making a difference somehow

Feeling a part of a new community by making true connections and lasting friendships

Fears:

People looking at me like I am crazy when I can’t communicate in the native language

My introvert tendencies taking over

Not connecting with other volunteers

Not being able to “handle it”… Bugs, What am I doing with my natural hair?

Getting lazy and not living up to the expectations of my community, especially if I am following a previous volunteer

Not actually finding myself, and coming back from Mozambique with no direction

With all of that written, I think I just answered the question of hopes and fears.  What Do I bring? My hope.  What do I leave behind? My fear.  HHmm… writing this out is great. Questions answered. I’m packed and ready to go! Let’s see how this works out!

packing

 

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